Wednesday, November 11, 2009

FACES OF RACISM



This trial must be made into a movie. 

Someone very dear to me told me he was very offended when we saw the images of Marwa's masked murderer in court. 

Why cover his face and show the faces of John Allen Muhammad and Nidal Malik? Cover them as well. 

And while you're at it cover the faces of Rumsfeld and George W Bush.

Cover the face of evil when it's a white man.... show evil when it comes in Muslim packaging. 

When will the West understand? Evil has no race or religion... it's in us all and is capable of coming after any of us indiscriminately!


























The DC Sniper was executed yesterday with lethal injection. He was a muslim convert and his sister states that since he came back from the military he just was not the same. 


At the same time Nidal Malik goes on a shooting spree in Fort Hood killing 13 and wounding about 30. And he will go to military court and might get a death sentence. 

I was never a conspiracy theorist but has anyone seen The Manchurian Candidate?

Anyways... Marwa's murderer is sentenced to life. 

May God rest her soul in the essence of his justice, may He forgive him and his sins, and our sins and the sins of our loved ones and of all believers.

ISIS



Wednesday, October 07, 2009

I WANT TO PUKE LETTERS

6 OCTOBER - تعيشوا و تفتكروا

"And after the bridge collapsed killing thousands, Cairo was divided in two with a long line of death and destruction in the middle. The government and the religious authorities issued a joint decree declaring that the incident was pure and untampered 'fate' and the only thing we can do is thank god it wasn't the High Dam. All attempts at legislative or judicial measures taken to find someone accountable were aborted in the womb by arbitrary arrests and police crackdowns on anyone who had the nerve to protest.

The anger and the injustice led the authorities to focus even less about the problems the people were now facing and focus more on shutting them up. Day by day the authorities became one Authority that's only function is to protect itself. 

Before this incident, the glue that held the people to the government was the public sector. Now, after the "URGENT Emergency Laws" were drafted in a half empty parliament, a curfew was imposed after dark and sometimes even the city streets that were still functioning were blocked... And thus public transportation was paralyzed along with a number of other public services. The excuse was that the parliamentarians couldn't get to down town and attend the session where the laws were approved because of the difficulties in transportation, however, they all gave their consent on the parliament Facebook group... People can no longer move freely. And still dissent was strong. 

There is something about Egyptians that makes them unlike any people anywhere else in the world. They are divided over the silliest of things and united over the silliest of things. But the fact that Egypt existed first - before religion, oil, the UN, and nuclear weapons - makes all Egyptians believe that Egypt will also exist long after these things are gone...."


- From Somewhere Far


Monday, October 05, 2009

From Somewhere Far...

Back home... after a series of long hard ass days at work... I'm depressed so I'm writing...

1. I dumped him because he was a heroin addict.

That's why I did it... the look his friend gave me when I saw him somewhere by chance is a very patronizing disturbing look... I thought WTF??? I wanted to go talk to him... and ask him... "Why are you looking at me like that? As if I killed him? I dumped your friend that way because he was a Heroin addict.... What? Me dumping him made him relapse?? No it fucking didn't! He was relapsed already and you of all people know that best... don't blame me! I'm sorry I hurt him! And I still feel bad - but I did the right thing. And now I'm safe. Your friend is big enough to find his way... or so he claims and I wouldn't know better.... Now look at me! I'M HAPPY FOR A CHANGE YOU FUCKERS!"... Now would you fucking take the picture?


2. It's like part of your brain has been cursed forever. You know what I miss most? I miss the balls. I had the biggest balls of all time. I would enter and risk every thing for the temporary fake pleasure that fucked my life for a long time - I was hurting myself - BUT DID I HAVE BALLS! Nobody, not even the police, could intimidate me - and getting shot at is pretty intimidating when you're out scoring smack. (not to imply that shooting at heroin buyers is a regular thing - it's not) But now all these homo sapiens who I really am convinced are from a lower species - intimidate me. They intimidate me in life and at work which is sooooo frustrating knowing that none of those strong sturdy men with mustaches and families to feed would stand a second in the war I fought... and am winning at the moment. Still... It doesn't comfort me... That thought used to comfort me that I won a war they would lose - now it doesn't. It's as if that person that I was is now completely gone - which is supposed to be a good thing - but since she's gone I don't have any balls left and I don't know what to do. 

3. I'm so paranoid all the time... I can't relax and I don't have any time for myself. I wish I could isolate myself. I wish I could just jump into a well of unlimited knowledge and information and keep swimming and drinking until I'm high off the truth. 

4. I wish I can just breath this thing out that's stuck in my chest. I wish I can cough it out or puke it out. I wish I can just fart it out my ears or pass it on to the sewage systems... but I can't... It's stuck inside me and won't escape until I'm dead or no more. 

I wish I can weave threads of my own being and wrap myself all around
And find peace and warmth inside my little world where it's dark but light inside 
A lonely little piece of mind that starts to change this skin I hide
With shackles on my feet, I try to find my pot of freedom, the potion, the poison, the elixir
The medicament to pain, the sniper of happiness, 
And drink it bit by bit
I wish all my senses would open and release everything I am. 
I'm only taking a picture of you and a ticking clock to my tomb

5. WOW - that feels better.... any one got anything? 7ad fehem ay 7aga? mesh mohem... 


Saturday, August 22, 2009

RAMADAN IS HERE

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

EGYPTIAN SUMMER THEME 2009: PROSTITUTION & REDEMPTION



I always believed our society suffers severe psychological problems...

And the diagnosis can never be short of a collective form of split personality disorder. And as any other system, we have defense mechanisms to help us cope, like denial, repression, and projection.

This year in Marina (Marina in my view is a phenomena that teaches us a lot about Egypt if observed well) a new pole emerged pulling the social contradiction pool wider. In Marina, a place where bikinis and burqas go literally hand in hand, where the paths of the poorest and richest of Egypt cross, a resort that some have called a consequence of bribery and corruption in gov't realms, sometimes symbolizes a magnifying glass on this frustrated and godforsaken society...

Especially after the 'resort' became less exclusive to the highest elites and its doors were open to poorer people. I don't know but it just amazes me because in Marina it's a different circumstance, it's the Summer, so you can observe the cultural and social as well as the economic gaps of contradictions and paradoxes even more... Anyways... This year billboards like those in the photo appear to have sprung up everywhere in Marina.

Observing this leads me to the following conclusions:

1. We, Egyptians, in the past few years attained new levels and forms of Freedom of Expression in a very capitalistic and commercial sense. These billboards are obviously costly and are payed for by someone to promote religion on the beaches of Marina and some of them are placed right in front of the Sakkara and Drinkies liquor shops.

2. This kind of Freedom of Expression unveiled a lot of social, ideological, and cultural contradictions in our society. This is because practically anyone can now successfully mobilize interest groups, affect public opinion, and communicate practically any type of message through a zillion different media available, which generally speaking is a positive thing.

3. The advertiser in this case has specified a very particular target audience. At first some may view this a positive thing for someone to allocate money just to help spread a positive spiritual message. But we must look deeper. The first question that comes to my mind is "If you're so keen on reforming morals... Why make this ad in English? Why exclude on obvious purpose a huge portion of the Marina population?... If this person wanted to merely remind people of God... Why didn't he make the ad in Arabic?

Because they're targeting a specific group... the exclusively English speaking population of Marina, the mostly higher class people, are the target audience of this ad... And this means that the advertiser assumes that it is only those people who need to be reminded of God...

And this means that he or she hold two assumptions as truth. 1. That the higher class is morally corrupt 2. The lower classes do not need moral guidance (or social reform) as virtue of being poor... What? Am I reading too much into this? I doubt... but maybe

The second and opposite interesting phenomenon is a new means used to practice the oldest profession. Online 'Escort Services' available in Cairo Egypt. Rates of different agencies and independents are posted on these sites, ranging from $100 and 2700LE per hour (300Euros) to 10,000LE per night. Different profiles of girls who'll be in Cairo for a designated period of time constitute a menu of mainly Russian and East European girls.

I couldn't believe it at first so I instantly sent a text message to a Cairo mob number posted by one of the agencies asking to rent 2 girls for 3 hours. Within seconds I get a reply saying only 1 girl is availabe and 'incall'. I replied asking 'Where?' and the answer was 'Fairmont Heliopolis Hotel'.... Tribute to our Tourism Police regulations that forbid unmarried people from staying together in Hotel rooms... but hookers are OK??

NO! That's business.

Not only that... but in a time of economic crisis one of the few industries 'ALWAYS LOOKING FOR NEW TALENT'... and they're investing in recruiting. I always knew that prostitution hubs exist everywhere. But this, to me, is new and not OK. I just believe that this in Egypt is worth examining especially to the backdrop of Billboards reading "REMEMBER ALLAH", court orders deciding to bar porn sites, while everyday girls get sexually harassed in the street, and Swinger's Clubs are being hunted down on Facebook.

By the way. Prostitution was legal in Egypt pre 1952... and working girls had to get a medical check up and a 'license' to practice... Hash was legal too. Now these things are not legal but ever so much more common than when they were.

I am so concerned at this moment by what is foreshadowed. When we, Egyptians, started possessing a few forms of Freedom of expression and access to information is this how we use it? When we get hold of new technologies do we only use them for our demise? So can the gov't say we don't deserve freedom? I don't know exactly if there's even a specific point I'm trying to make through this post. But I know one thing.

The contradictions and the gaps in our society are by no means only economic.

We are ideologically, culturally, and socially messed up.... Summer 2009 just yields new examples of how.


ISIS

Sunday, July 19, 2009

HEROIN AND ME


I AM A RECOVERING HEROIN ADDICT

And I'm proud. 

WHY? 

Because I'm dealing with it. Because I am fixing my life and I believe in hope.

WHY AM I BRINGING THIS UP NOW?
 
Because I tried to run away from it and I'm sorry I was being a hypocrite. I'm sorry I took down all my heroin posts - but now they're all back on. I republished all of them because THIS is the right thing to do - denial never helped me and will never solve this problem.

DO NOT WORRY!

I've been clean ever since the last time I mentioned my personal struggle with heroin on this blog, but starting now I will never be silent on this issue again because it keeps taking away people I love... the future of this country keeps getting fucked because the dealers keep dealing. 

I will hereby make it my personal struggle to take down the barriers and expose the naked veins of this problem.

I write about addiction to help spread awareness to others through portraying my personal experience with this difficult struggle.

My Heroin Posts:

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

MICHAEL JACKSON - ZA KING OV BOB

I heard a guy on Al Jazeera complain about all the attention given to Michael Jackson's death in Arab media asking 'who the hell was Michael Jackson anyway? What did he do for Arabs? What did he do for Muslims? What was his stance on Gaza?'   ummmm....

The king Michael Jackson at some point exemplified every teenaged boy's ultimate life dream in Shobra more than in Harlem. At least in the US they had other huge icons... and Jacko was also criticized. But in Egypt he came to the masses in GODLY SHAPE through mostly bootlegged tapes before the internet, MTV, and CD's... like a calling

I mean during any summer in the period from 1985 to 1995 if you walk down Khaled Ibn El Waleed St.  in "Meyami" or go to "Ma3moura" in Alexandria at any given time there will be someone doing the moonwalk so chicks can drool.. and some did... chicks were also obsess with him.... and I'm talking about the masses not exclusively those who went to American schools....

It was when I watched the funeral that I realized how truly influential za king really was. And started realizing what a loss it is for the world... he wasn't just an entertainer... He was a huge humanitarian, he gave hundreds of millions of dollars to charity... this tour he was going to have... Like most of his shows, it was going to contain many messages promoting peace and tolerance... and there hasn't been a time when the world needs that more than now.... And Michael Jackson was the only person with the sort of universal standing that would truly make the entire world listen... But now no one on this planet can even compare to the amount of love the world had for Michael Jackson... 

(Except Maybe Barack Obama!!)

HONOR CRIME ALERT: JORDAN

"AMMAN (AFP) - A court on Tuesday halved the jail term of a 29-year-old man who shot his raped sister 12 times and killed her "in the name of honour", a judicial official said.

The Criminal Court initially sentenced the man to 15 years with hard labour for killing his sister in 2008 in Mwaqqar, but immediately reduced it to seven-and-a-half years.

The judgement can be appealed within 30 days.

"The woman disappeared from home for six months after she was raped last year," the official told AFP.

"Police kept the woman in custody for her protection and later handed her over to the family, but the brother shot her 12 times in different parts of her body once she arrived home, killing her immediately."

The man told police that he committed the crime "in the name of honour", according to the official.

It was not immediately clear whether police ever caught the rapist.

Murder is punishable by the death penalty in Jordan, but in the case of so-called "honour killings", a court usually commutes or reduces sentences, particularly if the victim's family urges leniency.

Between 15 and 20 women are murdered each year in Jordan in the name of "honour". Last year, around 17 such killings were recorded."

Just thought I should mention this.